seconds in time

I really just dont understand..............at all : / one second he acts like a total jerk the next second he acts like he needs me and in that last second he acts like he cares and doesnt want me to be sad. (i really love that last one) But then reality hits and the circle of 3 seconds repeat itself. I suppose thats whats so intriguing and frustrating about his love : ( actually i take that back its not love anymore its trickery. but seriously when someone asks you whats wrong and you say nothing and then they put a sad face and you are all welll whats wrong with you and they say.................im picturing you sad and it makes me sad. How do you resist i mean really? I wish i could just erase that first second and everything would be golden to bead life and love are cruel >: /