weakness

i think sometimes god only puts you through hard times for a couple reasons 1) he knows youre strong enough 2) itlll make you stronger 3) to open your eyes  and no matter how hurt i am now things will get better and ill be stronger, but before he gives me strength im going to feel very weak so that i can humble myself. I do feel very weak because i feel like crying and to me its pathetic but it hurts me the most just not knowing what his heart feels................if he even has one :(