ok today i went to my grandparents for family birthdays and it wasnt too great. after it all it made me realize that when i go to college i wanna go away and i want to live somwhere else. you wanna know why? because for me family is just too much sometimes. i really do love them all very much but sometimes its just too much . because i feel like im always being judged or ridiculed for who i am or at least who i am at the moment. maybe they mean well, actually im sure they mean well, but they do a terrible job of showing it. and i feel like they just need to be patient and let me figure out who i really am and what i want to do with my life(sorry that sounded very cliche but its how i feel at the moment) instead of pressuring me to be somebody i dont want to be or just arent at all.but anyway back to well moving away. i think that its a great idea because that way ill be able to ive my own life,stay in touch with my family, and then on holidays or certain occasions i can visit them. that way i might appreciate them more and they might appreciate me more but then after that i can have s much family as i can take for awhile and go home where i can be alone until the next visit.maybe im sounding very horrible but its how i feel and i dont mean that i want to move away cuz i hate my family (especially not my parents) thats not it at all.but anyway i better go.
So true. When we took my sister down to college I wanted to stay with her so bad! I can't wait! It will be amazing. (:
ReplyDeleteSoooo true. Sometimes you just want them to go away! When we took Marissa down for college, I wanted to stay in her apartment with her! I am so excited for then. (: We all need to get away, grow up sometime. (: And it will be amazing. (:
ReplyDeleteTavia, I see what you mean. I feel like my friends know me better than my family sometimes, well my extended family anyway....and oh, about the book, I am sooo hooked, but i shouldn't be because it's so stupid and quite disturbing. Like it gives me chills. I hate it. but it's so addicting. so you can borrow my book when i'm done if you want to read it. it may change you for good, and not necessarily in a good way. haha. it's just so disturbing. haha...but you should read it. once you start reading it, you will be like, "what the heck? Sadie you read horrible things!" but anyway...just the for warning, and so i should be done soon. i just got hooked another 2 hours. so you also better be coming to open gym on tuesday.:) have a fabulous night doll!:)
ReplyDeletei definately feel like my friends know me better then my extended family they know me sooo much more
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