boys boys boys

i have two boys and 1 man in my life who mean soo much and lately I've been thinking a lot about how they affect me and my life well i should start off with the man. Hes really great and is always there to guide me. He's God and i know i haven't been showing him as much appreciation and commitment as i should. im sorry for that too its just so hard to balance everything in life and make time for everything. Anyway i should probably tell you who my boys are. you could probably guess that Colten is one of them but also my hoe:) Benjamin. I know it probably sounds super  corny and cliche. Colten isn't just my boyfriend but hes one of my best friends and i'm not sure what  i would do without him because he knows how  to make me smile, even if he makes me cry sometimes too. I know what you're thinking too."oh tavia you're in eighth grade you dont know what love is and you are a little too attached you are gonna get hurt, but its cute to watch how much you like him." But really guys it not some stupid jr. high crush. Now for Benjamin, i dont even know where to start. We've been through soo much together and he  IS absolutely one of my best friends. Even though he lives across the country he is one of my best friends and i hope that never changes because just not seeing him saddens me, so not talking to him or seeing him  would be the end of my emotions i would be a wreck. Ben is just like my brother who i can tell ANYTHING i mean ANYTHING and trust me he tells me EVERYTHING some of which freaks me out  but i love that about us. I cant wait to see him again. I love all of them in very different ways but one thing i know is they help make life a little better. :)