realizing

im slowly realizing that all i really want out of life is to just be happy. genuinely happy. Ive thought and thought about how i might achieve and withhold such happiness and i cant seem to find the answer. im starting to think that this is one of those things that you learn as you get older and become wiser. one of those things you cant ask an answer for because the only people who know are the ones who wont tell you beause they know it something you need to learn from life. i sure hope thats not it because i dont want to wait for my happiness. then again, maybe thats it too. is patience the key to happiness? (sigh) all these questions yet, no answers. Maybe ill find someone i can ponder them with. if i cant find true happiness until im old and wise id at least want to be happily in love truly happy in real love. there's another question when does real love enter my life?